Reflections

I am going through many episodes in my life recently. Things have changed so much that life is not what I used to think it is anymore. I realised that I was so naive back then, and just had everything my way.

I'm trying to be more socially aware around people now. It is not easy for me at first, but I am trying. It is very heartening when friends notice and acknowledge that. I do think that things are changing for the better, slowly, one step at a time.

I'm not sure why, but I am having trouble forming coherent thoughts recently. I think it is most likely due to the stress I have in my life now. I'm trying to cope with the amount of resources I have. Sometimes I wished I have more within me, and do not just have to be at the receiving end most of the time.

Sometimes I cannot help but distance myself from people because I think I cannot give as much as they can to me. However, I've learnt to let go and stop comparing myself with other people. Old habits die hard. I try to focus on the moment and enjoy the company. I feel so privileged to have everything I have now in my life. But that is not enough - I must act upon it. I should do more to express and show this feeling of gratitude to others.

I used to think I know about how to approach life - as what people usually say: be strong, do not give up, etc etc. However, when it comes to actually doing it, it really isn't as easy as what people think it should be.

At some point, everyone will go through tough times. The key is to remain positive and optimistic even in the face of challenges. I saw a quote today:

I am grateful that I am given this opportunity to be in this situation - and I hope good things come out of it. I am my worst enemy - and I will not give up fighting.

Thank you everyone for being a part of my life!