人生的意义
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
Reflections
I'm trying to be more socially aware around people now. It is not easy for me at first, but I am trying. It is very heartening when friends notice and acknowledge that. I do think that things are changing for the better, slowly, one step at a time.
I'm not sure why, but I am having trouble forming coherent thoughts recently. I think it is most likely due to the stress I have in my life now. I'm trying to cope with the amount of resources I have. Sometimes I wished I have more within me, and do not just have to be at the receiving end most of the time.
Sometimes I cannot help but distance myself from people because I think I cannot give as much as they can to me. However, I've learnt to let go and stop comparing myself with other people. Old habits die hard. I try to focus on the moment and enjoy the company. I feel so privileged to have everything I have now in my life. But that is not enough - I must act upon it. I should do more to express and show this feeling of gratitude to others.
I used to think I know about how to approach life - as what people usually say: be strong, do not give up, etc etc. However, when it comes to actually doing it, it really isn't as easy as what people think it should be.
At some point, everyone will go through tough times. The key is to remain positive and optimistic even in the face of challenges. I saw a quote today:
I am grateful that I am given this opportunity to be in this situation - and I hope good things come out of it. I am my worst enemy - and I will not give up fighting.
Thank you everyone for being a part of my life!
Tuesday, 27 March 2012
Life
Things are going okay for me. Have been in Singapore for almost 9 months now, experiencing the life of a working man.
At the intersection between working and studying life. Have been taking language classes after work, going back to Malaysia every other weekend, and generally trying to fill my life up with things to do. It has been really enjoyable, although this is going to end soon for a new life phase coming up ahead.
A big transitional year for me. Decisions, decisions, decisions. Where to study, what to do next, what to look out for and plan ahead.
Enjoying the new found freedom, with the occasional sting of loneliness. I think this is an unavoidable part of us human beings, and I think I have learnt to deal with it much better than before.
A lot has happened recently. I've getting to know myself a lot better, and about life in general. I realised my weaknesses, and how it has affected others. I'll try my best to improve. Sorry if I have not been a good friend in the past.
Life is such an amazing thing to discover. There are so many aspects to it that we will never learn it all. There is no time to waste. Start now. Live. Laugh. Love.
Friday, 20 August 2010
真情流露
原来,爱的力量可以这么强大。
Thursday, 1 July 2010
Recap
To recap on 2nd year, it was really one hell of a journey. Now when I look back, I had mixed feelings - felt phobic and nostalgic at the same time. Let's see how much I can recall.
Start of the academic year. Had my spirits high only to be dampened by the incoming workload, steadily increasing as time passes. Nevertheless, had a fun start to the term with a weekend trip to Oslo, Norway. Love that place. Just cant seem to get enough of travelling. Everywhere I go, there are always new things to be discovered.
However, weather was pretty cold despite me being there in October. Had no idea why so many people made trips there last winter. After me, so many friends when there in winter. Ian told me he couldn't feel his feet and had to beat it to make sure its still there =_=
Start of our Mechanics Design Project. Totally clueless on what to do at the beginning and came out with many random and useless ideas. Was stuck with no proper design in mind right until before the start of the Christmas Holidays.
Germany and Poland Trip. Was really looking forward to this one as its my trip with Premnaath! Has been so long since I've met my fellow secondary classmate. We sat together in class in Form 4. Still remember him dozing off with his pen drawing on his Physics Notes duing Puan Goh Chee Peng's class. LOL.
Munich was white and the town hall was really pretty.
The Christmas markets were also colourful and cosy.
Met Yi En in Stuttgart. Spent Christmas with a bunch of fellow Malaysians who were friends of Yi En. First time baking a chocolate cake too!
Poland was, well, really a new type of country I've been. Its gives a sad feeling with its horrible past. People stare at us because we were Asians. According to Premnaath, they dislike foreigners in their land because it was the foreigners who made what their land look like today. Warsaw was almost 90% destroyed in World War 2. Really sad and tragic place.
Warsaw had a wedding cake - a gift from Russia to well remind them of what happened in World War 2. The older generation really hate the building.
Zakopane is awesome! A cosy little town with skiing resorts and Christmas markets - I just love the atmophere there. Really dont mind retiring there though. Just only the language barrier that matters.
Oh, and I must thank Premnaath for being my translator over there! His Polish is amazing lah. I only know how to say "Jinkuya" (don't think its the correct spelling) when I see people all the time. LOL.
End of holidays and start of the term. I guess I was just lost in my academic work during that period. Can't really recall much as my daily life has been going to lectures, doing the Mechanics Design Project and attending Japanese lessons.
Japanese lessons were like a haven for me during the tough times. It was sort of my source of entertainment/relaxation at the same time a place to venture deeper into a new culture. I realised how much I love Japanese culture. I love their healthy food, their polite demanour, their work ethics. I love the beautiful scenery and places they have, their technology, and them taking pride in the culture they have - anime, manga, otaku etc.
For this I must also thank Miwa sensei for her teaching - it was one of the best tutors I have ever had. Ever friendly and cheerful, and never failing to answer any queries I have. Made me amazed and interested in Japanese language at the same time.
I hope I wont fail you, I can still remember some of the things learnt! :p
Mechanics Design Project was the highlight of 2nd year. For my group we were assigned to design an artificial knee, mainly for landmine victims in Manipal, India. It was something I had not done before - coming up with a design and actually manufacturing and testing it. Special thanks to Marcello, Tazeen, Kavitha who had made so much contributions to the group. It was really fun to work with you all and I am really proud with our work. As proven, we won the design project prize! Let's hope the patent can go through.
Still remember the days which I spent hours on SolidWorks, editing tables in the report, doing animations for our design, attending countless meetings throughout the week. It was really both phoobic and nostalgic at the same time. Now when I look back, it was really bitter-sweet - but I didn't regret it.
Spain and Portugal Trip with Edmund. This was one of the trips that I enjoyed the most. It was only the 2 of us - we could go anywhere and do whatever we wanted, and we pretty much did.
Barcelona was an amazing city. I just don't know how to put my love for the city in words. Let the picture do the talking.
Las Ramblas, the main tourist street (something like Jonker walk in Melaka)
Port Vell and the amazing beaches - and lying on the lazy chair for free only to be told off by the guards! :P
Plaza Catalunya - my FAVOURITE spot in Spain. Birds flying around and towards the people ready with food, people relaxing, couples kissing, teenagers showing off their skateboarding skills, young children with ice-cream running around.
Madrid was pretty much a city like London - busy people walking without a second look, and nothing much to do.
Gran Via - the heartbeat of Madrid's night life.
Portugal was also pretty awesome.
Portuguese egg tarts which is something very different - I felt out of this world when I tried it - it was just something I had not tried before - really really good.
Saturday, 24 April 2010
Thursday, 4 March 2010
Malaysian Night 2010!
Tuesday, 2 February 2010
Malaysian Night 2010
Sunday, 1 November 2009
Singapore-London
Flew from Changi Airport, transiting at Dubai, and then to London. Feels nostalgic because it reminds me of how I departed the first time of London, especially at Heathrow, the corridor where I first walked past, the customs, everything looked the same, just that I was not lining up at the first-time students queue anymore. Gosh, how time passes by.
Bumped into Kenneth when I alighted at Earls Court Tube Station. Found my way to our new place. My room was still empty! Thanks Kenneth for helping me move my things from the senior's place to our flat! Really appreciate it.
Moved furniture and cleaned my room for the whole of Sunday. I practically assembled my room from scratch!
I was so happy with the new place. It's strategically located next to Earls Court, where all the food are found, and also 5 minutes away from the Sainsbury that I always shopped at. I used to walk 20 minutes carrying heavy groceries back to my hall, and now it feels great to be able to save the trouble.
South Kensington is really dead, now I have seen Earls Court. No food, no stores, nothing. No wonder I used to have a bad impression of UK food. Not anymore! Maybe I can even stay near to Chinatown/Oxford Street next year!
The construction of Eastside hall is completed. Reminds me of the days where the construction noise wakes me up for the day to get ready for school. No need for alarm clock. Now my room faces a backyard, which gets creepily quiet at the night. Nevertheless, I enjoy this. Peace and quiet has always been my thing.
A fresh start of the term greets me with newly refurbished lecture theatre RSM2.28, which is now much brighter, yay, but lower seats, which make a tall guy's back ache everytime after a lecture. LOL
Lectures are geting tougher by the year, and I just got my Mechanics Deisgn Project, which is to design a transfemoral prosthesis aka artificial knee for amputated victims in India. One of the more interesting modules of the year.
However, the thing that keeps me looking forward everyday is Japanese lessons! Its the most fun, most interesting, and most awake lecture I have ever had! I managed to learn to read and write Hiragana so far, but there is still so much more to learn! So exciting! Asian/Oriental stuff appeals to me more, as usual. ^^
Sometimes I think whether I made the right choice by going into chim chim sciences/engineering stuff. I feel like I am losing my interest in Science when it comes to abstract ideas like modern physics or computing protocols. I used to love Science/Math so much in A-Levels, its the simplicity and the ability for me to relate them in daily life thats sustains my interest in all these subjects. Now Japanese is the one doing it.
There is something dampening my interest in learning what is being taught. Is it the university education system ? Or the British education system? Or the lecturers' accents which I sometimes find hard to understand? Or the abstract content? I really dont know.
On another note, Hanyang, YiJet, Ting Yu and me went to Oslo, Norway during the 2nd weekend! No one cant resist the temptation of a 16pound return flight to Oslo, so I skipped my last Solid Mechanics tutorial on Friday, just for the trip. Will post more pictures up soon!
Friday, 11 September 2009
Looking Back
Learning to use a whole new programming language to write brain programs for the lab is actually quite an achievement.
Going through thousands of data to derive statistical models for future reference is actually quite meaningful.
Having crazy lunch partners talking about random things and ocassional *censored* topics is actually quite fun.
Squeezing myself into packed sardin MRT trains every morning, listening to the humours of morning DJs and observing the daily busy-fast-paced-solemn-tired-face-hectic life of working Singaporeans is actually quite interesting.
Feeding the head with another kind of working experience is worthwhile. Life is all about lifelong learning!
1 week left to the end of my internship. School, Hospital, Working Office and now Research Laboratory. What's next?