Tuesday, 16 October 2012

Reflections

I am going through many episodes in my life recently. Things have changed so much that life is not what I used to think it is anymore. I realised that I was so naive back then, and just had everything my way.

I'm trying to be more socially aware around people now. It is not easy for me at first, but I am trying. It is very heartening when friends notice and acknowledge that. I do think that things are changing for the better, slowly, one step at a time.

I'm not sure why, but I am having trouble forming coherent thoughts recently. I think it is most likely due to the stress I have in my life now. I'm trying to cope with the amount of resources I have. Sometimes I wished I have more within me, and do not just have to be at the receiving end most of the time.

Sometimes I cannot help but distance myself from people because I think I cannot give as much as they can to me. However, I've learnt to let go and stop comparing myself with other people. Old habits die hard. I try to focus on the moment and enjoy the company. I feel so privileged to have everything I have now in my life. But that is not enough - I must act upon it. I should do more to express and show this feeling of gratitude to others.

I used to think I know about how to approach life - as what people usually say: be strong, do not give up, etc etc. However, when it comes to actually doing it, it really isn't as easy as what people think it should be.

At some point, everyone will go through tough times. The key is to remain positive and optimistic even in the face of challenges. I saw a quote today:
I am grateful that I am given this opportunity to be in this situation - and I hope good things come out of it. I am my worst enemy - and I will not give up fighting.

Thank you everyone for being a part of my life!

Tuesday, 27 March 2012

Life


Google Play brought me here today. It's been really long since I came here!

Things are going okay for me. Have been in Singapore for almost 9 months now, experiencing the life of a working man.

At the intersection between working and studying life. Have been taking language classes after work, going back to Malaysia every other weekend, and generally trying to fill my life up with things to do. It has been really enjoyable, although this is going to end soon for a new life phase coming up ahead.

A big transitional year for me. Decisions, decisions, decisions. Where to study, what to do next, what to look out for and plan ahead.

Enjoying the new found freedom, with the occasional sting of loneliness. I think this is an unavoidable part of us human beings, and I think I have learnt to deal with it much better than before.

A lot has happened recently. I've getting to know myself a lot better, and about life in general. I realised my weaknesses, and how it has affected others. I'll try my best to improve. Sorry if I have not been a good friend in the past.

Life is such an amazing thing to discover. There are so many aspects to it that we will never learn it all. There is no time to waste. Start now. Live. Laugh. Love.

Friday, 20 August 2010

真情流露















































原来,爱的力量可以这么强大。

假期期间,闲空的很,看了不少电影 - 但我的最爱还是《TOY STORY 3》。看完了那部电影,突然来了一份冲动,就把所有PIXAR的电影都重看一遍。没有一部是没有让我泪流满面的。

动画片显示出了人类的真纯,没有经过社会捏造的一派胡言,动机重重的现实社会。

人类最真诚的那颗心,往往无意中受到了外界不少的诱惑,变质了。
有时候,该打打自己,认真反映自己的人生 - 是不是让社会压力动摇了我们人生的信念与坚持?

Thursday, 1 July 2010

Recap

Its been really long since my last post. I guess I have been too caught up with work, and hadn't realised how fast time flies. Today is the last day of June. Gosh.

To recap on 2nd year, it was really one hell of a journey. Now when I look back, I had mixed feelings - felt phobic and nostalgic at the same time. Let's see how much I can recall.


October 2009

Start of the academic year. Had my spirits high only to be dampened by the incoming workload, steadily increasing as time passes. Nevertheless, had a fun start to the term with a weekend trip to Oslo, Norway. Love that place. Just cant seem to get enough of travelling. Everywhere I go, there are always new things to be discovered.

Amazing sunset.

However, weather was pretty cold despite me being there in October. Had no idea why so many people made trips there last winter. After me, so many friends when there in winter. Ian told me he couldn't feel his feet and had to beat it to make sure its still there =_=


November 09

Start of our Mechanics Design Project. Totally clueless on what to do at the beginning and came out with many random and useless ideas. Was stuck with no proper design in mind right until before the start of the Christmas Holidays.


December 2009

Germany and Poland Trip. Was really looking forward to this one as its my trip with Premnaath! Has been so long since I've met my fellow secondary classmate. We sat together in class in Form 4. Still remember him dozing off with his pen drawing on his Physics Notes duing Puan Goh Chee Peng's class. LOL.

Munich was white and the town hall was really pretty.

The Christmas markets were also colourful and cosy.

Met Yi En in Stuttgart. Spent Christmas with a bunch of fellow Malaysians who were friends of Yi En. First time baking a chocolate cake too!

Poland was, well, really a new type of country I've been. Its gives a sad feeling with its horrible past. People stare at us because we were Asians. According to Premnaath, they dislike foreigners in their land because it was the foreigners who made what their land look like today. Warsaw was almost 90% destroyed in World War 2. Really sad and tragic place.

Warsaw had a wedding cake - a gift from Russia to well remind them of what happened in World War 2. The older generation really hate the building.

Zakopane is awesome! A cosy little town with skiing resorts and Christmas markets - I just love the atmophere there. Really dont mind retiring there though. Just only the language barrier that matters.

Oh, and I must thank Premnaath for being my translator over there! His Polish is amazing lah. I only know how to say "Jinkuya" (don't think its the correct spelling) when I see people all the time. LOL.


January 2010 - March 2010

End of holidays and start of the term. I guess I was just lost in my academic work during that period. Can't really recall much as my daily life has been going to lectures, doing the Mechanics Design Project and attending Japanese lessons.

Japanese lessons were like a haven for me during the tough times. It was sort of my source of entertainment/relaxation at the same time a place to venture deeper into a new culture. I realised how much I love Japanese culture. I love their healthy food, their polite demanour, their work ethics. I love the beautiful scenery and places they have, their technology, and them taking pride in the culture they have - anime, manga, otaku etc.

For this I must also thank Miwa sensei for her teaching - it was one of the best tutors I have ever had. Ever friendly and cheerful, and never failing to answer any queries I have. Made me amazed and interested in Japanese language at the same time.
I hope I wont fail you, I can still remember some of the things learnt! :p


Mechanics Design Project was the highlight of 2nd year. For my group we were assigned to design an artificial knee, mainly for landmine victims in Manipal, India. It was something I had not done before - coming up with a design and actually manufacturing and testing it. Special thanks to Marcello, Tazeen, Kavitha who had made so much contributions to the group. It was really fun to work with you all and I am really proud with our work. As proven, we won the design project prize! Let's hope the patent can go through.

Still remember the days which I spent hours on SolidWorks, editing tables in the report, doing animations for our design, attending countless meetings throughout the week. It was really both phoobic and nostalgic at the same time. Now when I look back, it was really bitter-sweet - but I didn't regret it.


April 2010

Spain and Portugal Trip with Edmund. This was one of the trips that I enjoyed the most. It was only the 2 of us - we could go anywhere and do whatever we wanted, and we pretty much did.

Barcelona was an amazing city. I just don't know how to put my love for the city in words. Let the picture do the talking.

Las Ramblas, the main tourist street (something like Jonker walk in Melaka)

Port Vell and the amazing beaches - and lying on the lazy chair for free only to be told off by the guards! :P

Plaza Catalunya - my FAVOURITE spot in Spain. Birds flying around and towards the people ready with food, people relaxing, couples kissing, teenagers showing off their skateboarding skills, young children with ice-cream running around.

Madrid was pretty much a city like London - busy people walking without a second look, and nothing much to do.

Gran Via - the heartbeat of Madrid's night life.

Portugal was also pretty awesome.

Portuguese egg tarts which is something very different - I felt out of this world when I tried it - it was just something I had not tried before - really really good.

Lisbon reminded me of Melaka - the forts they have just like A Famosa, and the weather during then which is also bright and sunny all day. A good escape from Nottingham which we previously came from.

Porto is a laid-back town with friendly people and nice architecture.


May 2010

Start of the final exams. Right after my trip, I was so afraid that I was behind until I studied so hard everyday - really everyday from 9am to 11pm non stop. It was also another horrible experience - but we went through together. Special thanks to Kangwen and Siew May here - you guys made my revision period so much more interesting. The contents were so much until we were so desperate - we actually joint effortly divided the notes and made notes separately then exchange and combine them - you could imagine how much of stuff we need to learn for the exams. Revision divided into 3 people! But it was really great to have support from you all.

The language lab (my suggestion! instead of the packed library) is also another nostalgic place in Imperial College from now on. Place where we would meet up for revision and do past year papers together. All the best for the results!


June 2010

Almost reaching the end of exams. Lost momentum towards the 10th and 11th paper - just couldn't care more. Just needed my first class so I meet A*STAR requirements. At the same time my family came over and visit - it was my idea as I could only return home in August and I wanted to see them so badly, so I proceeded to book the air tickets, only then telling Dad after :p

Really glad to see them love London and Paris. To my surprise, they preferred London, which was the opposite for me. London was a hell-hole with sardin-packed tube, and cold faced people.
I guess my busy life made me felt that London wasnt the right place for me. There are so many places I want to live but London - Barcelona, Zakopane, Oslo, Lucerne, Edinburgh... the list goes on.

Their trip made me realised how much I under-appreciated London. Brought them to so many places which I haven't been myself, and find myself loving it. I guess its just a different feel of the place having your loved ones around, eh?

Also got many good food recommendations around London. Tried Japanese, Korean, Thai, French, Italian, Chinese and of course Malaysian. You can really have all the food of the world right here in London. However, I still prefer my wantan mee and chee cheong fun back in Melaka XD

Now that they have returned to Melaka, it is the start of another new chapter of my life. I am currently doing an internship with my personal tutor at Imperial College - finally a chance to take a good look how research in Imperial is like.

My research project has a pretty interesting title - "using small angle light scattering to imperfect bone".

This is my 3rd day of work and I am loving it. Seen the laser machine that I will be using soon. The principle behind is really interesting, and I am really lucky to have such a superb tutor! Together with her ever-dedidcated Phd student, I'm sure this will be a fruitful attachment.

Wish me luck!

7 more weeks to Malaysia! Can't wait!









Saturday, 24 April 2010

寻找遗失的自我



每一次在电台听到这首歌都会起鸡皮疙瘩。




歌词特别有意思。

Thursday, 4 March 2010

Malaysian Night 2010!

Imperial College Union Malaysian Society proudly presents:



Malaysian Night 2010 - Born to be Vile




The performances, in chronological order:



- ACT 1 -


Opening




Melodi + From This Moment



Asmaradana + Indian



Mamak Mia




Smooth Criminal





- ACT 2 -


Stomp




Curtain Call

Tuesday, 2 February 2010

Malaysian Night 2010

OK, sorry for the long long long no update. Have been super duper busy. Entertain yourself with this for the moment. More updates to come.


Find out more here.

Sunday, 1 November 2009

Singapore-London

Gosh. Didnt realise I havent not been updating my blog for so long... Shall start with my trip back to London.

Flew from Changi Airport, transiting at Dubai, and then to London. Feels nostalgic because it reminds me of how I departed the first time of London, especially at Heathrow, the corridor where I first walked past, the customs, everything looked the same, just that I was not lining up at the first-time students queue anymore. Gosh, how time passes by.

Bumped into Kenneth when I alighted at Earls Court Tube Station. Found my way to our new place. My room was still empty! Thanks Kenneth for helping me move my things from the senior's place to our flat! Really appreciate it.

Moved furniture and cleaned my room for the whole of Sunday. I practically assembled my room from scratch!

I was so happy with the new place. It's strategically located next to Earls Court, where all the food are found, and also 5 minutes away from the Sainsbury that I always shopped at. I used to walk 20 minutes carrying heavy groceries back to my hall, and now it feels great to be able to save the trouble.

South Kensington is really dead, now I have seen Earls Court. No food, no stores, nothing. No wonder I used to have a bad impression of UK food. Not anymore! Maybe I can even stay near to Chinatown/Oxford Street next year!

The construction of Eastside hall is completed. Reminds me of the days where the construction noise wakes me up for the day to get ready for school. No need for alarm clock. Now my room faces a backyard, which gets creepily quiet at the night. Nevertheless, I enjoy this. Peace and quiet has always been my thing.

A fresh start of the term greets me with newly refurbished lecture theatre RSM2.28, which is now much brighter, yay, but lower seats, which make a tall guy's back ache everytime after a lecture. LOL

Lectures are geting tougher by the year, and I just got my Mechanics Deisgn Project, which is to design a transfemoral prosthesis aka artificial knee for amputated victims in India. One of the more interesting modules of the year.

However, the thing that keeps me looking forward everyday is Japanese lessons! Its the most fun, most interesting, and most awake lecture I have ever had! I managed to learn to read and write Hiragana so far, but there is still so much more to learn! So exciting! Asian/Oriental stuff appeals to me more, as usual. ^^

Sometimes I think whether I made the right choice by going into chim chim sciences/engineering stuff. I feel like I am losing my interest in Science when it comes to abstract ideas like modern physics or computing protocols. I used to love Science/Math so much in A-Levels, its the simplicity and the ability for me to relate them in daily life thats sustains my interest in all these subjects. Now Japanese is the one doing it.

There is something dampening my interest in learning what is being taught. Is it the university education system ? Or the British education system? Or the lecturers' accents which I sometimes find hard to understand? Or the abstract content? I really dont know.

On another note, Hanyang, YiJet, Ting Yu and me went to Oslo, Norway during the 2nd weekend! No one cant resist the temptation of a 16pound return flight to Oslo, so I skipped my last Solid Mechanics tutorial on Friday, just for the trip. Will post more pictures up soon!

Friday, 11 September 2009

Looking Back

I have been complaining to so many people that work life is boring. Now its time to think otherwise. Looking back at what I have done,

Learning to use a whole new programming language to write brain programs for the lab is actually quite an achievement.

Going through thousands of data to derive statistical models for future reference is actually quite meaningful.

Having crazy lunch partners talking about random things and ocassional *censored* topics is actually quite fun.

Squeezing myself into packed sardin MRT trains every morning, listening to the humours of morning DJs and observing the daily busy-fast-paced-solemn-tired-face-hectic life of working Singaporeans is actually quite interesting.

Feeding the head with another kind of working experience is worthwhile. Life is all about lifelong learning!

1 week left to the end of my internship. School, Hospital, Working Office and now Research Laboratory. What's next?

Wednesday, 19 August 2009

Work

I want to do this:



Not this!